Hello again! I can't believe it's already the end of January... I recently got hired at a local grocery store chain as a custodian, I think I'm doing pretty okay for my first week but there's a lot I still need to learn, like making a cardboard bale. I'm really happy to have a job that's less customer facing! I'm strong, fast, efficient and a pretty good worker I think once I know what I'm doing. The obvious hesitancy to hire women for these types of positions is really frustrating, especially in the year 2025 but once I prove myself people tend to shut up about any "concerns" they might have lol. Heaving trash bags into the compactor is probably my favorite part of the job so far for some reason, good way to blow off steam I guess. Anyway, I haven't been up to much since I've been adjusting to this new job, I've been playing some more Infinity Nikki, Animal Crossing and Club Penguin Journey lately.
I think it might be a good idea to try and make a goal list for myself, you might not know this since I haven't really posted anything regarding it here (I don't have to, it is my personal business after all) but as much as I hate the umbrella terms going around these days and the obsession people currently have with their identities consisting of labels (too clinical in my opinion) I do fall under "neurodivergent." I have some low-grade trauma and possible brain damage from being on harsh ADHD meds as a young child that I firmly believe did more harm than good, while I do have ADHD and anxiety that affect me on a day to day basis, as an adult that can now consent to taking medication for it I refuse. I really don't think it helps me and I'd much rather find natural approaches to help my symptoms, such as making lists for myself. There's a lot of things I've been trying to accomplish for literally over a decade, and unfortunately now that I'm a 25 year old woman my brain is not as "spongy" and primed to learn as it was when I was a kid. However, the things I aspired to become good at around the age of 13 are still very important to me, and I want to try hard as hell to accomplish those goals so as not to let 13 year old me down. I started drawing at a very young age, and as early as elementary school I had kids and adults alike impressed with my art. Unfortunately I've been slacking due to my brain function and certain life events but I hope to someday get back on track with my art <3 I might need to start the list small so as not to burn myself out too quickly though. This is probably one of the few times I post something this personal on my blog though, I kinda want to keep this space more positive and "aesthetic" I guess lol.
